"do not waste life. everytime you let someone leave you without knowing how they make you feel, you have died a little death for nothing. do not assume you have more then the moment you are living in. it's never too soon, or too hard to tell someone that you love them, that they move you, that you are better for knowing them. your job is to celebrate love, and to trust in the universe to bring you the people you need and tell you how to be with them when they arrive. you live a life that will end with regretting only things you did, not things you never did. you promise me baby bear, tell everyone, make them hear you, put aside your petty fears and love loud for me, so i can hear you in heaven"


- Stacey Ballis "sleeping over"

I put my heart and soul into my work and have lost my mind in the process,
-Van Gough

Maybe one of these days I'll be able to give myself a gold star for being ordinary. And maybe one of these days I'll give myself a gold star for being extraordinary. And maybe one day I won't need to have a star at all.

-Sue Bender

baBoom!baBoom!
like a drum
a pulsing beat
blazing

baBoom!baBoom!
thumping
throbbing
aching away

baBoom!baBoom!
the click clack of the train
the hum of the engine
the beat of a drum

baBoom!baBoom!
stress
coffee
and heat

baBoom!baBoom!
baBoom!baBoom!

its so close now i can feel it.
the seconds. passing.
the fear. rising.
and i wish that i could feel you
like i can feel the time
miles instead of minutes.
and i wonder if i've missed it all
or has it not yet begun
everything that you promised
nothing at all like you mean.
and the scrambled words fall
foreign to my ears
new to my mind
warm to my heart.

and my heart beats faster and faster my love
as my hand moves slower and slower
and time

completely


stops.




i wish i could remember how to speak